ala lang, am feeling lonely, so I think I'll share some pix :) Ipe, Lala and I were MC's at juren's debut last january... I look pretty weird here, like I just got out of bed, put on a dress, then went straight to Kapitan Moy... har. Nope, I didn't get it done up that night. para akong... espasol. heehee >.< hala, i think this looks better. \m/

Chris, Chuck, and Monica during their LAYB finals (haha, where else do you find finals being conducted in broad daylight?!!) :P

The kids at sister Lau's day care center. cuteness. :) yung iba, tignan nio na lang dito.

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uwi na ako bukas, as in for real na talaga. hwahaha, anu kaya mangyyre?!

"I'm running, I'm running, catch up with me life... "
- Nelly Furtado, Turn Off The Light

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Yes, Myke, I think I should be grateful instead.

a page from the graphic novel Ang Kagilagilalas Na Pakikipagsapalaran Ni ZsaZsa Zaturnnah by Carlo Vergara (okaaayy, I know it's not exactly a new release. still!:P) .

about the book here.




I think this was just the perfect punctuation to my otherwise crazy yesterday. :) I've been raring to read this for ages, and Danna happened to buy it over the weekend. ang kulit! bonding nanaman naming magroommate ito (hay, lapit na pala kaming maging un-roomates. sigh). It's funny, of course, but it's pretty sentimental too. and highly idealistic, may I add. In real life people like Ada aren't as willing to accept, nor are they as happy in the end. but he rocks. go zaturnnah!

and did I mention, gay person though he is, he looks... hot. hahahaha!

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Ah, drama mode nanaman kami ni Jared kahapon. pero hindi siya yung drama mode na tipong iyakan at sentihan. parang drama mode na inisan at kapraningan. praning kasi ako eh hahaha. Next time, I hope we'd be talking about lighter, more (erm) normal subjects. heehee

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eto wala lang. I'm really already technically in vacation mode because I don't have exams anymore, but I'm still here in Elbie and I have all the free time. hehe. Hay. what the hell is gonna happen to me this summer? I wish I could find a job somewhere. :)

sarj, thanks for the comment on the weird tabulas post. :)

I am on a sugar high. I've eaten nothing but cake all day. It doesn't feel great right now actually. I feel utterly sleepy (or maybe that's just because it's already eleven, plus I've been travelling all day?! :P)

last thursday was layb elections... it was our last official meeting for the sem as well. and there you go. no special "babay" brouhaha. me too. i really suck at endings. i don't dot eh whole sentimental movie sequence. i just don't know how to. end in a nice, nice way. awrm. right now, i don't like all that goodbye stuff very much...

This afternoon we hauled off my stuff from the dorm... all that's left there for me next week would be my bed and my pillows. froggy and mashimaru and blue and frog prince are all here in marikina too. are we being too... too ostentatious?! harfuharu! (haha, what's that?!) and then ahlee's suddenly all willing to apply for the wait list. it kinda triggered some very disturbing emotions for me. hehe.

I must be trying too hard to be perfect, am I not? Maybe that's why I never get anywhere. But I'll have you know, people don't exactly regard me as someone who's almost perfect, let alone someone who looks like she's trying to be... i think. hmmm. what an epiphany. whatever, baboy. hehe. Grade school was chicken. I was talkative and I loved to draw and I was friendly and that was enough. Now I have to consider money issues and relationships in my character. but who fucking cares. hehe. I just wrote that out because it makes me feel like I still have some grasp on things. and then I'm gonna post this just because. but do we really have

a grasp

on everything

that happens to us?

?

Just wondering.

i learned something interesting yesterday: the light from the stars we see on the sky every night are really memories of those stars ages and ages ago... they're so far from us that it takes their light years and years to reach our eyes. if we had the ability to be beside those stars in the blink of an eye, they'd look completely different than how they look as we are looking at them right now. :) Chuck (who nowadays is sporting a cast!) said that one of the stars on Orion's Belt (that row of stars locally known as tatlong Maria and astrologically known as Gemini!) has already exploded and disappeared quite some time ago, but we still keep on seeing its light. isn't that cool? and sad at the same time. rawr, i'n feeling melancholic again. it's because of that nice top i didn't get to buy this afternoon. hahaha. just kidding. back to those stars. it's rather like life. knowing that everything good we have right now isn't really going to last. huff. :(

there's no electricity at the dorm right now. on exams week, no less. there you go, I won't be able to study for my exams and I'll fail and I won't get to move at all. huh?! then I'd get to continue attending Layb meetings. We'd also probably be classmates again. I'd probably stay in emerald. I'd probably major in writing. I'd probably...

hahahaha. maybe. just freaking may-be.

I haven't daydreamed for ages, until today. wheee!!! :)

yun lang for now.

I guess since I'm entitled to write whatever I feel like here, that gives other people the liberty to put in what they think of what I write, too? Kaya lang, some people completely don't get it. My initial reaction was to say, "Who the hell said anything about whining?!" Pero... haha, sige, e di sobrang apektado ka... :p

I get the feeling that he's doing all these just to go through that whole angst and depression thing, just so he could have something nice to write or sing or blab about, just so he could have the whole malevolent aura going, just so he could look so sad and so stricken by injustice, that it would all be cool somewhat. ok that's cruel. Unfortunately, praning rin ako and I really soooo don't feel like taking it all seriously so pareho na kaming baliw ata.

I think I really should talk to you, but then again, I'd rather not because there really isn't anything to talk about in person. Someday someone's gonna kick me in the ass big time for all this so-called wrong things I'm doing to you, but I don't think it's gonna be you. Ok?

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my blocmate Aya did a little concert for me last night... ang galing galing galing ng talentadong batang yun! violin... woot. astig. haha. idol ko na siya, super. We came upon each other one time and I was like, "Aya, ang ganda mo ngayon!" and I really meant it. and then she was all flustered so she was like, "Ikaw rin... joke!". haha. oops. nakuwento ko na ata yun no? hehe.

these days, all I want to do is sleep. :)

4 papers

3 exams

2 presentations

1 shooorrttt week.

hehe. here we go...

I'm feeling super sentimental all of a sudden. I hate march.

I hate being suspended by the waist from this bridge... know what? I kinda forgot whether I was working on going up... or down the water.

so I'm just kinda swinging left to right, left to right, left to right.

fellow swingers, where do we go?

ayun lang.

Papa's been home for two weeks (yay! :P). I haven't gotten a lot of chances to see him (malamang, I'm away five days a week!)... i think he'd be fine with me staying here, but i don't know. why's everyone (me included) so... so.. so.

I hate march, with all its implications. I truly do.

I find that I don't have much to say lately.

Go fill up my Johari Window.

Thank you very much.

*mwah*.

Been witness to a really twisted series of events lately. Am now awake, or something. I'm trying to win God's favor back. been away toooooooooo long. been tooooooooo self-centered. haha. been realizing that yeah, God's there. he's here. I can feel him. haha. so glad.

first, the questions, then, the letter, then, the mass, then, Lent, then, the SIM card, and then everything else. hehe. La lng.

thank you.