(this is not about R).

I'm not the hero or the good girl here.

maybe people change. maybe, heck, I have been changing too. Maybe it's not half as tragic as it is completely inevitable and understandable.

Maybe denying it causes more pain and confusion than just accepting it. Maybe it isn't really either one's fault, maybe things are just... different. and nothing else.

maybe, okay, I'm finding it hard to understand a couple of things, but maybe the best thing to do would be to simply let you be with that. I mean for all I know - and I kind of have a strong feeling - the feeling is mutual; and I would very much like you to let me be, too. :)

So if you're reading this (and we know how good you are with signs and hidden messages) I'm acknowledging that we're kind of drifting apart. I think it's been happening way longer than this. It's been making me sad, and I have no idea what to do with it. I'm not sure what I've done, and I'm still figuring out if there's anything you've done too, but nevermind.

Basta for what we are right now, we can't be the way we were some time ago.